LOL. hey xm, i tink maybe i wan to feel same as u liao. don like anyone nw. forget bout the fuckin BGR. jus focus on my o lvls. easi to say though, bt difficult to act. Man i haven't spoke to her for a very long time. i really missed the times i toked to her. well if ure tink tat im lame, so be it. damn, she really makes mi feel so depressed man. its difficult not to think of her, not to say even to forget her. why, haha. this sucks man. sometimes, i do feel lonely. i dunno y, tat lonliness jus creeps into my heart. although i hav many great frens like my clan; and my family, i still feel tat way. i liked her for a very long time. i won tell u who she is. bt my frens shld noe. she is really my motivation, i go band, jus to see her, nt really tat im really interested to go. band, is really a place which made mi feel comfortable. so i jus go band for her and my 'gang'. dey really gave mi much fun and enjoyment in band. thats y i really miss dem alot. it is kinda ironic. when dere is band practice, i will always feel bored and wanna pon. bt when dere's no more band, i actualli missed band practise. unbelievable. or maybe i jus miss the members of the band, nt all of the members. there are some tat i hav immense hatred with.ok continue the stori tml =/